I wish you knew

 I wish you knew

Talking you off a ledge

Trying to find the words to remind you

Holding your hope in my hands

Holding your life in my words

Looking down with you

Praying this ends with a different view

Trying to find ways to help you see

Trying to help you feel what’s in me

I wish you knew

How strong you truly are

How much you have already survived

How much you have left to see

How much your little actions mean 

Reminding you of all the things to come

So many sunsets, sunrises, full moons and stars.

The scents of flowers on the breezes 

A thousand hugs in enfolding arms

Are the words getting through?

Can you understand how much we love you?

Is it simply a bandaid for a moment, skin deep but pointless,

Or am I able to stitch up enough to stop this hemorrhage of pain?

I wish you knew

How strong you truly are

How much is left to come

How much better things will get

How much power is in the word “yet”

I wish you knew

How scared I am right now

How the distance feels like a chasm

How words feel so feeble, like spidersilk when you need steel cable 

How much I ache to hold you until you’re able

It isn’t over

I promise if you let it, it isn’t over.

Katie: 3/6/24 4pm